One year ago today I moved to this city and I never looked back.
Ever since I was young, I remember dreaming of such a moment, but I never truly believed that it would come true for me. I’m not quite sure when I decided to not let my dreams just be dreams. I have a feeling it was somewhere in between Zach getting a call from The Today Show while we were eating at Buffalo Wild Wings one day and the moment where I stood with tears streaming down my face as I lugged two large suitcases on a one-way plane ride to NYC. When I look back on it, I guess I never really went out and chased my dreams…I was kind of just pushed in to them after life got sick of me staying in my comfort zone for too long.
Truth be told, moving to this city absolutely scared the shit out of me. I had lived in a small town all of my life and New York was the exact opposite of everything I have ever known. The thought of going to a place where I knew nothing and nobody was petrifying. I mean, I wasn’t just moving to New York…I was making a home smack dab in the middle of Manhattan! At one point I started to think of how much I might hate such a place, but once I entered the city and looked at it as being my new “home” instead of just a “destination” things completely changed. Either adored or loathed, New York is a place where there is no middle ground. You either love it or hate it…and in that moment I fell absolutely and positively in love.
I’d like to think that my love affair with New York City is similar to my relationship with my husband – it has endured longer and is infinitely stronger than most of my other relationships for the simple reason that it is unlike any of my other relationships. I am absolutely smitten and completely committed. I would do anything for this city. It seems silly, but it makes me happy every day (even when it rains – which is really hard to do). It has a certain charm about it. Like my husband, even when things are crappy and life is tough, it somehow finds a way to make me smile. Just looking outside my window or going for a walk always makes me feel better. New York breathes life in to me and fills me with inspiration. I’m not quite sure I can say that about any other place I have ever called “home.” I am sorry, Zach, but it looks like you may have a little competition when it comes to something that truly captivates my heart!
Don’t get me wrong, this year hasn’t been easy (I have the bumps and bruises to prove it) but boy has it been worth it. Yes, rent is too high, food is too expensive, and sometimes it is tough being in the middle of all of the hustle and bustle…but I would choose this life every time. It has been an adventure. An absolutely brilliant adventure. This year holds a lot of new memories and this city has begun to form me in to a woman I have always wanted to be. It has made me strong. It has made me confident. It has made me resilient. And most of all, it is teaching me how to follow my dreams without having to be pushed in to them. I don’t know what the future holds, but I sure am excited to see what New York City has to offer.
Happy Newyorkaversary to me!!!